Friday, June 25, 2010

Favorite Photo(s) Friday!

We can't wait to see the faces in these pictures!!!


My Uncle J & Aunt J (minus Cousin A)

My Uncle P & Aunt A

The Panda Family

Panda Girl

Mi Padre

Big brother B

The greatest Mom and Dad in-laws on the planet

Mi Madre


(And yes, half of these pictures have been ganked from those in them :) The top two are courtesy of *FayCeB00ke* and the two below that are courtesy of Panda Mom)






Thursday, June 24, 2010

From Frankfort to Franklin

In January of 2008, just three weeks after saying "I do," my husband and I walked through the door of the small church we would eventually call our church home. After six months of wondering whether or not we should leave our previous church, wondering whether or not my husband should begin applying for local church positions, we were drawn to attend and eventually join Grace Church. We have grown to love this small congregation, and although the length of our time here remains uncertain, the love and fellowship continues to grow.

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Not long after being members at Grace, my husband and I discovered a potential dilemma--this young church only had so much room to grow. Since the original church plant in 2007, Grace has been renting a church building just off of Frankfort Avenue. While it has served its purpose thus far, awareness of our limits has increased. Renting comes with significant limitations: only being given access on Sundays, limited classroom space, a sanctuary that would bust at the seams if we were to experience significant growth, and the minor setback of an air conditioner that occasionally goes out when the lights are turned on... Setbacks indeed. Grace is filled, almost overwhelmingly so, with individuals and groups who earnestly want to serve and expand our church's ministry to the community. There are so many wonderful giftings within our small body, and yet we have limited resources given our current situation. Even making the most of the church building we do have provides little room for additional growth and ministry.

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Hence mine and my husband's eagerness when we received word a few months ago that another local congregation has sought our church out. This particular church, nestled in the old downtown area referred to as Butchertown, contacted our elders in the early spring to discuss a potential merger. This would involve the two coming together as one church, and our current congregation finally moving from our small rental to their three-story building in Butchertown. When the pastor who leads our small group brought up the idea for discussion one evening, I think he was somewhat overwhelmed at our enthusiastic response! Here we are a young church, antsy to be so much more effective and consistently involved in a variety of ministries, eager to have our church congregation consist of more than predominantly seminary-affiliated students and families, and the idea of finally having our own building alone is enough to stir up some excitement. Since the talks began a few months ago, we have since invited their congregation to our church for a Sunday worship service, our preaching pastor has been there once, and we also joined them for a good ol' Baptist potluck a few weeks ago. Our church is set to officially vote on moving forward with the merger this Sunday, and their congregation will be doing the same in the near future. If all goes according to the tentative plan, we could be one church called by our new name (something still in the works) by the fall!

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With such a merger comes change, some readily accepted and some of which will require a measure of grace and patience from both churches. We are a young church, strong in reformed theology, strong in certain practices, and we have been given the opportunity to do something wonderful for putting doctrine into practice! When this merger takes place, there will be two church cultures coming together trying to make things work as one unified body. This is a time when I am thankful for my more traditional Baptist background as it has enabled me to be more sensitive and discerning of the potential issues and questions that may arise. I am also thankful for churches such as this who have such a rich history, a history marked by perseverance and strong commitment to their community (One of the older women I spoke to during the potluck, Erma, told me the story of when her father built their house down the street more than 70 years ago, and how she has been a faithful member of this church ever since.)

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When I look at an older Baptist congregation, one with whom I have brief glimpses of my childhood at either my home church or my grandparents' country church, I am reminded that there will be times when discussing the differences in tradition and doctrine will be crucial to our separate churches coming together as one:

  • Why does our church take part in Communion every Sunday rather than once a quarter?
  • Why don't we sing straight from the Baptist hymnal?
  • Should women be allowed to serve as deacons and/or teachers?
  • What is the purpose of a membership class prior to someone joining the church?

I am thinking of hypothetical questions on an almost daily basis, and each time I do I am also praying for grace. While some churches seem to have things together, all the kinks worked out with the whole church coming together as one unified body, we are all still sinners saved by and in need of grace. Even some of the most well-intentioned people can approach questions and differing views without displaying care or concern for the other party. So not only do we have a great opportunity to finally be even more involved in ministry to our local community, but we have an opportunity to come together with a church very different from our own and lavish love and grace on them. My husband and I are praying fervently for this merger, praying that elders and congregation alike will practice humility first when dealing with crucial matters, as well as those which may seem secondary to us. I've never prayed for our elders as much as I have in recent weeks and months, and I have been praying for the young men as well who are eager and willing to roll up their sleeves and dive into whatever ministry the Lord may have in store.



"Clothe yourselves, all of you, with humility toward one another, for 'God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.'" ~1 Peter 5:5
"So if there is any encouragement in Christ, any comfort from love, any participation in the Spirit, any affection and sympathy, complete my joy by being of the same mind, having the same love, being in full accord and of one mind. Do nothing from rivalry or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others." ~Philippians 2:1-4

Thursday, June 03, 2010

~ June 1, 2005 ~

This week marks five years since I loaded my 18-month-old dog into my '98 Malibu, with my dad in a truck behind me pulling a horse trailer loaded with all my belongings. We set out on a bright Texas morning and headed north. My then-boyfriend and his parents were just a couple of hours ahead of us on the same stretch of highway. It was a 700-mile journey made in faith. I knew where we were headed, but clueless as to what was beyond our destination.
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I find myself asking at random moments this week, "How did we get here?" Whether sitting at my desk at work, feeding my dog (now accompanied by another smaller version of herself), driving my '05 Malibu around the city, walking around the neighborhood on a warm summer evening with my then-boyfriend-now-husband, drinking my ritual morning coffee--whatever the instance may be, I've asked myself that very question and reflected on the answer: God's goodness.
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This week has been a real struggle for me in some ways. While remembering all of the good, I have also fought seemingly moreso than ever for contentment with where we are in life. As we walked around our quiet neighborhood last night, I became overwhelmed with frustration and anger as the weight of waiting hit me hard. As quickly as the frustration and anger overcame me, the truth of my husband's encouraging words hit faster and deeper. What I am needing right now is a heart of gratitude. I don't know when this season will end, I don't know the what or the where at the end of this season, but I do know one thing: there is overwhelming reason to be grateful! While reflecting on these past five years in Louisville, my soul is filled with praise to the Lord for all He has done and so richly given:
  • A wonderful and stable job
  • Two dogs that bring daily joy and laughter
  • A church filled with loving brothers and sisters
  • My health and the Lord's nearness with every doctor's visit and test result since my diagnosis
  • Financial means to slowly but surely pay off debt
  • Family and friends near and far who have been a constant source of support
  • A husband who continually speaks truth, reflects Christ's unceasing love, and encourages when I should be the one encouraging him
I want to cry as I think of the very particular ways in which God has provided. And not only could I weep in response to such overwhelming gratitude, but I could continue writing the ways for hours. His provision is an undeserved promise, His nearness such a grace. I pray desperately for a heart of gratitude, and that this waiting season will not be a time when a root of bitterness grows. My God is good even when the day ahead is unknown. We don't know what the future holds, but He does and has assured us that we can rest in that! I want to look back on this season, after the next five years have quickly passed, and see that this was a time of great and much needed growth for both me and my husband. And not only do I want to look back in five years, but I want a heart that is grateful and experiences the joy of knowing Him today.

Friday, May 28, 2010

Favorite Photo Friday!

The idea for the hit show "The Office" didn't come from nothing! I have moments on occasion when I think I'm living one of the episodes~
Oscar: What are you microwaving?
Phyllis: Popcorn.
Pam: Why don't you use the microwave in the kitchen, Phyllis?
Phyllis: Someone needs to clean it, it smells like popcorn.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Farewell to the Island ~ LOST Finale Night

*Disclaimer: Only food and character names are mentioned, none of which will give away crucial elements of the plot!

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After all the fun we've had watching this last season of "LOST," it only seemed appropriate that we go out in character-like style. Our finale party was so much fun, and having everyone dress as the show's famed characters made it even better! Here is a brief rundown of the cast members and other snapshots from the party on Sunday night~

Some of the cast: Rousseau stealing baby Aaron, John Locke, Claire, Charlie, Ben as Henry Gale, "Smokey" (with his costume hanging on his shoulder), an island polar bear, Rose, Bernard, and Oceanic Flight 815 (also Kate the rest of the evening after the plane fell apart)


DHARMA Cola, Apollo chocolate bars, and fried chicken from Mr. Cluck's Chicken Shack!


The message Charlie wore on his fingers~


That is one scary island polar bear - run for your life!!


Richard Alpert, his lovely wife Isabella, and...the Man in Black


The Man in Black giving a brief history of the island (or babbling about juice)~


Jack & Mikhail


Dr. Jack Shephard & John Locke
("man of science vs. man of faith")


The excellent trivia game we all played! Props to the guys for putting this together and on the TV for us! Do you know the answer to the trivia question?


Dr. Pierre Chang & the winners of the trivia game, Ben & Jack~





What a great evening with lots of fun memories! We have really enjoyed the past few months with this crew, and it's a little bittersweet that "LOST" has come to an end. We'll just need to think of something else to bring the gang together!





Friday, May 21, 2010

Favorite Photo(s) Friday & An Impromptu Blessing

My husband and I had a rather impromptu time of blessing and last night. To preface the evening, I went home early from work yesterday afternoon with the makings of a migraine, and went straight to bed until almost 7:00. Upon getting up and feeling drugged (well, I was) and not sleepy enough to stay in bed, I made my way downstairs knowing that I needed to think of something for dinner. Thankfully, there was a pitiful portion of soup in the fridge for my husband, and I swallowed down the leftovers from a less than impressive pasta dish. While swallowing down my food (I was just glad my husband was enjoying his soup!), he got a call from one of his best friends inviting us over for dessert ("Yesssssss," I thought to myself in relief).
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Our friend (one of my husband's closest and dearest) grew up in Mexico before coming to college where we all met. His parents are missionaries in Oaxaca, and they are in town this week visiting as part of their overall summer travel in the States. Our friend has taken them to all the "must see" places in the area, including Huber's Orchard & Winery (I don't think you've truly lived in Louisville until you've experienced Huber's...hence my desire to go at least once before we move away from here!). So while we chatted and reminisced and heard stories of missionary experience and travel, we indulged:



My heart rejoiced when I saw this pile of heavenly strawberry delight in a pie pan! I think I ate about half the pie myself, complemented with a hot cup of coffee. I mean, really, it couldn't have been better - my best friend would have loooooved it, and I thought of her while we filled ourselves with strawberry goodness~





It was such a nice evening of conversation and being totally spoiled. Our friend's mother is truly gifted at making people feel at home, having welcomed us with immediate warmth and hospitality. I felt like I had known them for years even though I hadn't met them before last night. While she busied herself with food and coffee, her husband told us great stories of some of their experiences traveling and meeting different people. I especially enjoyed the story he told of a couple they met more than 30 years ago whom they will be visiting with again in the near future. Stories of how God crosses our paths with others on the journey always encourage my heart. Their stories and the experiences they have already had thus far reminded me, too, of how much I am looking forward to growing old with my own husband. So while it was extremely difficult dragging myself out of bed this morning in time for work, the sluggish morning was worth it for the sweet night we shared with good friends~

Monday, May 10, 2010

Song for Sunday

(Bowley-Peters & Smith)
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1. Through the love of God our Savior, All will be well
Free and changeless is His favor, All is well
Precious is the blood that healed us
Perfect is the grace that sealed us
Strong the hand stretched forth to shield us, All must be well
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2. Though we pass through tribulation, All will be well
Ours is such a full salvation, All is well
Happy still in God confiding
Fruitful if in Christ abiding
Steadfast through the Spirit's guiding, All must be well
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3. We expect a bright tomorrow, All will be well
Faith can sing through days of sorrow, All is well
On our Father's love relying
Jesus every need supplying
Yes in living or in dying, All must be well

Monday, May 03, 2010

Perfect Peace

Do you ever have those times when it's so abundantly clear that the Lord is reminding you of a very specific truth, something your heart and mind need reminding of? That's where I've been these past few weeks. I have daily (at times hourly) asked that He would give me a very real sense of His nearness and peace that surpasses my own understanding as my husband and I continue in this holding pattern of a season. My attention has frequently come back to the promise given in one of my favorite books in Scripture:

You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You.
Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord God is an everlasting rock. ~Isaiah 26:3-4

Yesterday morning during our church's worship service, our worship leader invited us to a time of open prayer and praise. My heart is encouraged by hearing the prayers and words from Scripture that have been placed on people's hearts. I kept hearing that same theme of praising Him for His goodness, trusting in Him as we wait patiently for Him, and was then compelled to proclaim the Isaiah passage aloud. Along with the passages others read, my husband was compelled to read this one:

Therefore the Lord waits to be gracious to you, and therefore he exalts Himself to show mercy to you.
For the Lord is a God of justice; blessed are all those who wait for Him. ~Isaiah 30:18

The theme has been frequent, profoundly evident, and I have been grateful for the ways (big and small) the Lord has reminded me of such wonderful and comforting promise. His peace is perfect, promised, and He is faithful to bless those who wait patiently for Him. To continue the theme even more, I came across this prayer on one of the blogs I read fairly often:

Most kind and trustworthy Father, you haven't promised me a storm-less, hassle-free disappointment-empty life. You offer me no formulas for decreasing the probability of sad things happening around me or disillusioning things happening to me. But you have promised me something that transcends the chaos and fear of uncertainty.
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Father, you've promised to keep me in perfect peace, in the midst of whatever happens. O, how I treasure the promise of being kept by you. For there are times I simply cannot keep myself... I have no boot straps to pull up... no magic happy pill to take... no fix-it button to push. Thank you for being a Father who will never forget or abandon your children... who will never forget or abandon me.
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And how I praise you for the promise of being kept, not just in peace... but in perfect peace... as I mind and mine your trustworthy-ness. For you are the LORD--the eternal Rock that is higher than me... the Rock of refuge... the Rock of ages! This leads me to cry out for greater steadfastness of mind... for more gospel-sanity... for more power to bring my wandering, distractible, unbelieving thoughts into captivity to you.
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Yet I will not despair when I am weak in concentration and focus. Indeed, Father, you're not calling me to trust in my ability to trust, but to trust in you... in your trustworthy-ness, not in my trust-ability. For you've even promised your children a peace that passes... surpasses... even by-passes all understanding. Hallelujah!
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What a God you are! There is none like you, Father, no not one! How great are your mercies... how profound your kindnesses... how more-than-sufficient your grace! So very Amen, I pray, in the name of Jesus, the Prince of Peace... the basis and bounty of all my peace.
(S. Smith, Quoted at challies.com)


Little did I know prior to graduation and this post-seminary season how much the Lord would be teaching me! On the most difficult days, I need those reminders of His goodness and promises to those who wait for Him. I look forward to the day when I look back at this season and see the evidence of His sustaining grace and peace~



Wednesday, April 21, 2010

A Day of Sunshine, Friends & Thunder!

Just in case you're wondering, the activity level of this blog has been pretty indicative of our everyday lives in recent weeks. We continue to wait and pray and wait, have long and wonderful conversations, and wait some more (the kind of waiting that is owed its own post in the near future). However, April is a beloved month around our house since it's the month of birthdays! We have had much fun celebrating both mine and my husband's birthdays, simple and sweet, savoring the time together.
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The big event for my birthday weekend (one that was apparently not really for my birthday, but a citywide event - yeah, I tried) was Thunder Over Louisville on Saturday! Thunder is the huge kickoff to all of the Kentucky Derby festivities that go on between now and the first weekend in May. We hadn't been in a few years (how long have we been in Louisville now? Wow!), and several friends from church hadn't been yet, so we loaded up a group of eight and headed down to the Ohio River for a day of funnel cakes, turkey legs, thrilling airshow, and spectacular fireworks!

Me and my love~

A wonderful time with wonderful friends!


I took three pictures at three different angles and still didn't capture all of the crowd out at Riverfront Park that afternoon!





















You haven't experienced a true fireworks show until your spine is vibrating and eyes are watering! We had just as much fun watching our friends experience Thunder for the first time as we did seeing the show again for ourselves. While there are some definite downsides to spending a day surounded by 700,000+ other spectators, the time spent with friends was well worth it.
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I was reminded, as I have been on countless occasions in these recent weeks, of how good the Lord has been to my husband and I during this time. While we are completely clueless as to how much longer we will be here in the 'Ville, we are thankful for the time we have had here, for all of the sweet friends and memories made~





Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Couch-Buddy & Fuddy-Duddy


A snapped these over the weekend while still playing with the camera on my new phone (which I love!!), and couldn't resist sharing them - Can you tell the couch-buddy from the fuddy-duddy?

Friday, March 26, 2010

Favorite Photo Friday!

Just for the record, I bought mine first!



Wednesday, March 24, 2010

"Give Me ________ Or I Will Die!"

“Idols aren’t just stone statues. No, idols are the thoughts, desires, longings, and expectations that we worship in the place of the true God. Idols cause us to ignore the true God in search of what we think we need."
(Fitzpatrick, 23)

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One of the highlights of being done with seminary, for me and my husband alike, has been the opportunity to go back and read certain books again. We were extremely fortunate to have some pretty amazing required reading lists, particularly for my counseling courses. However, the inevitable downside of the required reading during seminary was the inability to truly savor the content. I was given some of the most enriching texts I could have asked for, but given the hurried nature of my schedule throughout seminary, I didn't often really reflect on what I was reading. Hence the reason for creating a post-seminary reading list. I found it only appropriate to begin with Idols of the Heart by Elyse Fitzpatrick, a veritable cornerstone for the entire premise of biblical counseling and my heart for such ministry.
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The second chapter in Idols deals very personally with "Rachel's Idols and You." If you aren't familiar with Rachel's story from Genesis 29-30, she was consumed with jealousy and anger over the fact that she wasn't able to have children. Rachel, the beautiful sister, the one whom Jacob considered lovely, could not bear children, while her sister Leah gave him sons and a daughter. So overcome with envy, Rachel cried out to Jacob, "Give me children, or I shall die!" God saw fit to eventually give her children, and yet... after all of her pleading and agonizing, after a deep root of bitterness had grown, such blessing still wasn't enough for her. Why wasn't it enough for Rachel to finally be granted the one thing she had asked of the Lord? She craved something more than God Himself. She desired the gift over the Giver, and therefore her wicked heart remained unsatisfied. Rachel's story illustrates of what real idolatry looks like: elevating created things over the Creator, the gift over the Giver... What is it that we crave so much that we are willing to sin in order to obtain it, and then will sin if we don't? We each have a heart bent toward certain sins, hearts that are, as Luther referred to them, "idol factories" quick to seek satisfaction from something or someone other than God.
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I know full well that I can relate to Rachel very personally, and that I am prone to her response removed from God's daily grace. My natural inclination would be to wallow in self-pity, feed my own root of bitterness, and cultivate a heart incapable of sharing in the joy and celebration of others. These thoughts went through my mind after the events of this past weekend, one of many baby showers I have helped coordinate since being here in Louisville. The pain, the empty "something's missing" feeling, the sadness, the longing can very easily move me to anger and envy. Or even worse, I could be moved even further to no longer feeling anything, the paralized state of someone whose hope is swallowed up by despair. By the grace of God, I am not marked by such despair! Because of Christ, I have been given a new heart, a heart that feels and has emotion and has real desires. My husband and I desperately desire to have a family, and there are days when the longing seems enough to suffocate the very life out of me. But I don't struggle as one who has no hope. Because of that hope, because of the One who knows my form and my future, I can rejoice with those who rejoice, even if there are those days in between when I simply need to weep. I did shed some tears this weekend after the sweet celebration, but those tears did not come from an embittered heart. I know my tendencies, but I have also known grace. Rachel's story is never far from my mind in this regard because I know full well that I could quickly cry out, "Give me children, or I will die!" were it not for His grace intervening.
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For you, the "Give me _____, or I will die!" may be something else. Success? A husband or wife? A spouse with whom you would never argue? Perfect children? Whatever goes in the blank, ask yourself this: Is there something in my life I crave so deeply that I will either sin to get it or sin if I don't? "God calls us to bury our false gods at the cross. It’s in union with Jesus Christ, the One who hung on Golgotha’s tree, that we have the power to conquer all of our idolatry and bury our gods in the blood-soaked ground beneath His cross" (Fitzpatrick, 28). Praise the Lord that He has redeemed us through the blood of Christ, and that He satisfies our every longing... that HE is better than life itself.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

A Sweet Shower with Sweet Friends

I think this season of baby showers for our church is slowing down a bit (we tend to go through cycles at Grace!). We celebrated the upcoming arrival of "Baby D" this weekend with decadent desserts, words of encouragement and advice for Mommy-to-be, sweet friends, and a time of prayer.


Yes, decadent: banana pudding, fresh pineapple, cheesecake, cake balls (my usual, but devils food this time rather than red velvet), and Julia Child's chocolate cake recipe (thanks to my wonderful co-hostess!)~



This sweet friend (whose own baby shower was one of our more recent):
and I got to talking about just how fortunate we are during this season. Many (most) of us are in transition right now, between school and careers and family decisions, and looking around at the group of wonderful ladies on Saturday night just warmed our hearts. The Lord has been so gracious toward us, and we mutually agreed that we will be thankful for this church and these women for years to come~


The big boy on the block was enamored with some of the gifts Mommy received for Baby D!


I couldn't resist getting this for them! Their nursery has a fun alphabet theme with animals here and there, so when purchasing items from the registry, I caved and also purchased this adorable, huggable monkey~


This portion of the evening was perhaps the most meaningful. We ended the shower by praying for Mommy, Daddy and Baby D, accompanied with the other mommies present writing down words of advice for the days ahead. It was a joy to bless them in this way, and I'm so glad the evening turned out the way it did! It truly was a sweet evening with sweet friends~






Monday, March 22, 2010

An encouraging quote...

This morning, after an evening of news frenzy and frustration, I am asking the Lord for this perspective:

"...a tranquility that signals we’re not afraid of the rise and fall of temporal kingdoms and their policies. . . . So if what you’re afraid of is a politician or a policy or a culture or the future of Western civilization, don’t give up the conviction but give up the fear. Work for justice. Oppose evil. But do it so that your opponents will see not fear but trust, optimism, and affection.
'So now faith, hope and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love' (1 Cor. 13:13).
Fear God and, beyond that, don’t be afraid."
--Dr. Russell Moore

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

LOST!

Unashamed confession time: I have a new addiction...

Yes, that new addiction is "LOST"!! Some friends of ours were kind enough (kind and knowing that we would get hooked!) to loan us the first three seasons on DVD a month or so ago, and then we caught up on the rest of the episodes online. I've laughed, I've teared up, I've sat at work some days hoping for the hours to go by faster so I can get home to watch the next episode, I've sat virtually all day on a Saturday in my pj's glued to my laptop...it's quite ridiculous, and yet there is no shame to be had. This has seriously been like diving into a wonderful and mysterious novel, except viewing on the TV screen rather than reading words on a page. I don't know when I last enjoyed a series as much as I have this one, and although late to jump on the bandwagon, it has been so much fun to have my husband and our friends here to watch with!
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Last night was my first night watching a new episode on the night it actually airs since I was busy getting caught up to speed until this weekend. It just so happened to also be the night our fellow viewing friends decided to have a "Dharma-themed dinner" beforehand (those of you still confused just need to give in to your curiousity and watch the show)! One such friend also happened to have a fun label maker, so she printed out labels for all of our "Dharma-produced" food~



After a dinner of cereal, fruit, and "Dharma beer" (root beer), my husband and I stayed late talking about how we think the story might resolve. Sure, it's just another show on TV to some, but for me it's been a new adventure. I've always been a bookworm, savoring the enjoyment of a novel filled with twists and turns and the totally unexpected, and this show has been no exception to such enjoyment. So this is warning to you all: if you engage in conversation with me in the coming weeks, there's a pretty good chance I will attempt to get you sucked in to the "Lost" world. If not, I'll at least try to teach you how to play a round of backgammon~

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Even Then ~ My Personal Testimony

I was asked this past week to recall my conversion experience in writing. Thankfully, I was asked to do so a couple of years ago for one of my classes at Southern, and therefore already had it typed just needing some minor tweaks. While reading back my personal testimony, I was reminded of this wonderful reality - each of us who have been called by the Lord, redeemed and transferred from darkness into His marvelous light, has a testimony!
If you were raised in a youth group like me, you may have experienced what it was like not to have a "cool testimony" - one filled with seasons of severe depression, addiction, or infidelity, prior to the Lord's saving intervention. These were always the students invited to share their testimony in public, and I was oftentimes envious that mine wasn't as dramatic and "worthy" of being recalled in front of people. How wicked my heart was for reacting that way! I was admittedly a self-centered drama princess myself, and therefore often offended if there wasn't something in me that leaders thought was attractive enough to be in the spotlight... Oh, how thankful I am for the gift of time, and Lord leading through refinement and maturity. Only by His grace am I where I am now, because of His work both now and almost 20 years ago when He called me to Himself. Because of that amazing and unmerited grace, we each have a story. The Author saw fit to give us different experiences, different seasons, through which we would come to know and depend on Him. No personal testimony is greater or more poetic than another. The fact that we each have a unique story of how the Lord rescued us speaks overwhelmingly of both His awesome glory and very personal grace! Praise the Lord that He knows each of us in such a way that He set into motion each event along our individual journeys.
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When was the last time you wrote out your personal testimony of conversion? I found it to be a rewarding exercise, stopping and reflecting on what all the Lord has done throughout the course of my life. I remembered both people and events He has brought along the way, all for the purpose of drawing me closer to Him, deepening my faith in and love for Him. If you feel compelled to write out your own, I would love to read it! If you write it out on your own blog, please leave a comment to let me know you've done so. I hope we can be encouraged by one another's testimonies of God's amazing grace:

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I still struggle to recollect details of my salvation experience, the specific moment of conversion, due to my young age. This moment, though, occurred following a Sunday night at my home church when my family attended a Christian band concert. I was only eight years old at the time, and the most vivid memory from this particular night was the feeling I had as I glanced around at the surrounding audience. I remember this gnawing feeling deep in the pit of my stomach as I was overcome with one thought: something was missing. As I looked around the sanctuary, I was struck with the reality that I did not know God personally, and certainly did not know His Son the Savior. All of the songs I had been singing since the age of two, all of the Bible verses I was trained to memorize, seemed empty as I realized that I did not know the One whom the words were describing. Upon arriving home later that evening, I sat on my bed with my mother and shared my thoughts with her. I vaguely remember her asking me questions for assurance of whether or not I was experiencing true conversion. We closed our conversation with prayer, and she asked me to pray aloud. I remember asking Him to forgive me of all I had done wrong and to cleanse me as my personal Lord and Savior. I was baptized by immersion only a week or two later as an indication of the transforming work Christ had performed in my heart.
Due to my young age at the time, there were years following when I honestly questioned the sincerity of my conversion. I struggled at times with assurance of salvation, particularly in my early teenage years and around the time when my parents divorced. The question always came to mind of how someone can be a true believer and still battle with anger, depression and frustration. As an immature adolescent, I watched in confusion as my older brother, who once professed the same faith, took a nosedive into a life marked by perpetual rebellion.
Only by the grace of God was I surrounded during those formative years with godly leaders and friends, many of whom I remain in close contact with to this day. The Lord opened my eyes to the truth that He held and protected me through my childhood and adolescence, guarding my heart in ways I was oblivious to then. I cannot look back at the years afforded to me and not be overcome by God’s overwhelming sovereignty and grace. Not only did He guard me personally in those early years, but I can see how past experiences led up to where I am now. His Holy Spirit has clearly been shaping me from an early age in such a way that bears witness to the hope found only in Him and in His Word. He has revealed to me through relationships, with both family and friends, that He is the only One who satisfies the weary, wounded soul. I know without a doubt that I am unworthy of the rich gifts the Lord has provided, of the salvation made possible through Jesus Christ, and that He alone has the power to redeem His beloved.



Thursday, March 11, 2010

My Friend-Across-the-Big-Pond's Birthday


A certain song comes to mind on this my dear friend's birthday:
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Something brought you to my mind today
I thought about the funny ways you make me laugh
And yet I feel like it's okay to cry with you
Something about just being with you
When I leave I feel like I've been near God
And that's the way it ought to be...
'Cause you've been more than a friend to me
You fight off my enemies
'Cause you've spoken the Truth over my life
And you'll never know what it means to me
Just to know you've been on your knees for me
Oh, you have blessed my life
More than you'll ever know...
More than you'll ever know...
You had faith, when I had none
You prayed God would bring me a brand new song
When I didn't think I could find the strength to sing
And all the while I'm hoping that I'll
Do the kind of praying for you that you've done for me
And that's the way it ought to be...
You have carried me
You have taken upon a burden that wasn't your own
And may the blessing return to you a hundredfold...
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You are loved, you are continually prayed for, you are missed, you are remembered often, and by so many who have been blessed by your imprint on our hearts. When you feel lonely and distant from those whom you hold dear, my hope is that you'll be encouraged by your brothers and sisters who are continually mindful and so very thankful for you.!
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Happy Birthday, Geek #3!! We know who holds the title as Geek #1, and you're just too cool to be #2 so I humbly claim that spot~

Friday, March 05, 2010

Favorite Photo Friday!


Look at those young college kids! I came across this picture a few days ago after not seeing it for quite some time, and can't help but look at it and reflect on the Lord's evident goodness over the years...
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"Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights" ~James 1:17